A small apology

So I guess I was being a tad insensitive in that last post. I think that while I've moved on from my feelings for Andrew, some people apparently aren't as heartless as I am, and they still need time. Which is fine. I am sorry that I threw my new happiness up in everyone's faces, especially Andrew's. As Sue says, I have "Mike Goggles" on, and that makes me a bit selfish and inconsiderate.

I'm just the type of person that doesn't ask questions, I just do what feels right to me. And that's gotten me in trouble on many an occasion. I dont' just mean in relationships, I mean my overall impulsivity. Andrew thinks it's unhealthy for me to say that I am ruled by my emotions, but it's not exactly emotions, it's just that when I get a happy feeling I tend to gravitate towards it. It seems natural to me? I just think I ultimately wasn't happy in the relationship anymore, and the eternal question that Andrew asks is "why". But I can't tell him why, except that he wasn't the right fit for me, which I realized much too late.

I suppose it looks like I left Andrew to be with Mike, but really I had left Andrew a little while before that, in my mind at least. And I am somewhat of a horrible person, to tell him to wait for me to see if I'll start wanting to be with him again, so that he just had to wait around expectantly. But I do these things with the best of intentions, I swear. I really wanted to try to make it work, and finally one day it just clicked that it really wasn't working and there was nothing I could do about it.

So I apologize, again, to everyone. Don't think I'm an unfeeling monster, because I'm really nothing of the sort. Everyone just wants to be happy, it just sucks that my happiness and Andrew's doesn't coincide anymore.